12/5/2018

What have I been watching?: King of the Hill
Last movie I watched: Get Out

So I took my LSAT a few weeks ago.  I thought I'd be super elated from the relief of having finished it, and in some sense I am relieved to not have studying for it weighing on me, but when I left the testing center I did not feel very relieved.  I don't particularly desire to relive the day, but I guess I will put myself through this anyways.

Let me start at the beginning.  I took the test in Eau Claire, and I allotted myself a good amount of time to find the right building and make sure I could park somewhere legally.  I was nervous, but not horribly so.  I was dismayed to find that the lot was metered, and then almost immediately relieved to shift my eyes to the lot's sign which announced that parking was unregulated on weekends.  Next, I looked to my right out my car window.  At this point, only mine and a couple other cars were in the lot.  About 8 spaces down from me, I watched a guy get out of his car, prop his hand on the front hood, bend over, and proceed to vomit in the parking lot.

I imagine he was either extremely nervous, hungover from the night before, or perhaps both.  I found it somewhat comical, and consider it the lightest moment of the day.  I hung out in my car a bit, as a few more cars arrived, and eventually made my way into the building with my 1 gallon clear zip lock bag.

Although the test is long, and took somewhere around 5 hours (don't recall exactly), it did go by quickly.  Each section would end abruptly, with a harsh and unsettling announcement from the test regulator, and you barely had thirty seconds to gather yourself before being forced to rush into the next section.  By the time it was over, I felt thoroughly traumatized, and genuinely wanted nothing more than to forget the entire thing had ever happened.  I called my mom from my car in the parking lot afterwards, feeling very odd and uncertain, and she was kind enough to come to Eau Claire and spend the rest of the afternoon with me.  I spent the following hour roaming around Ulta and then we had lunch at Olive Garden.

I do not yet know my score, and frankly I do not want to know.  Of course, I will have to look eventually, as much as I would like to pretend that I never even wanted to go to law school.  I did not expect to feel this way, because I figured my expectations for my score were so incredibly average that it would be unlikely that I would find myself disappointed.  I will be agonized if I have to take it again.

Apart from that unsettling experience, things have been really good.  I find myself quite content in life right now.  Historically I've struggled a little more in these cold dark months, but I've found dialing the heat up just a few degrees makes such a world of difference in my happiness.  Admittedly, I am terrified to receive our electric bill (we haven't gotten one yet since having turned the heat on), but I think it is a worthwhile luxury.  My room is small enough that just a few degrees makes a huge difference, and I have been so cozy, enjoying afternoons off in my warm room watching movies.  I've also been attending yoga class, which was something I did last year fairly regularly with my friend Phil, but we've been busy this semester and never got around to it until recently.  The last couple classes have been very effective--afterwards, we find ourselves in a bit of a stupor, as if we've been lightly drugged.

Yesterday I watched Get Out.  I had seen it once before, but decided I needed to watch it again because I was not in a suitable setting the first time I watched it and I figured I'd missed a few things.  Well I watched it again and apparently I missed quite a bit the first time around, namely all the key intense climactic moments towards the end (I don't want to spoil anything).  I would recommend it.

Frisbee has been so fun!  I really get along with a lot of the new members of our team and our twice-a-week practice has been such a nice getaway.  We have our annual holiday party this Friday, which I will be hosting.  I am taking hosting extremely seriously.  I will be cleaning the entire apartment over the next two days, and will be baking brownies and cookies the afternoon of.  Festive tablecloth and paper plates have been purchased, Secret Santa gift has been prepared, and I am psyched.

Last thing to note, yesterday I had a startling experience when I got into my vehicle and took my car out of park and found that my car moved back a lot quicker than usual.  My brakes, which have always been incredibly sensitive and reactive, now did not function unless I pushed the pedal all the way to the floor.  I had a signal come up on my dash a couple days ago, and like an extremely irresponsible idiot, I did not check it until last night.  Brake fluid warning light!  Filled up the brake fluid reservoir but still having issues, so going to get that looked at today.